来自《still Alice》里Alice的演讲:
The art of losing isn't hard to master, so many things seem filled with the intent to be lost,and their lost is no disaster.
失去的艺术并不难掌握,因为很多事情看上去都终究会失去,这种失去并不意味着灾难。
I'm not a poet,I'm a person living with early on-set Alzheimer's.
我不是一个诗人,我只是一个患有早起阿兹海默症的普通人
And as that person,I find myself learning the art of losing every day. Losing my bearings,losing objects, losing sleep,but mostly,losing memories.
正因为如此我发现我每一天都在学习失去的艺术,失去了我的理智和方向,失去了物件,失去了睡眠,最重要的是失去了记忆。
All my life,I have accumulated memories,they have become in a way my most precious possessions.
The night I met my husband,the first time I held my textbook in my hands, having children,making friends, travelling the world,everything I've accumulated in life,everything I've worked so hard for,now all that is being ripped away.
我一生都在积累各种各样的记忆,某种意义上成为了我最珍贵的财产,我遇见我丈夫的那一晚,我第一次拿着我写的教科书的时候,有了孩子,交了朋友,环游世界,都是我生活的积累,都是我工作如此努力的原因,现在这一切都被剥夺了,
As you can imagine,or as you know, this is hell,but it gets worse.
你们可以想象或者你们也经历过,这简直是地狱,而且情况还在变糟,
Who can take us seriously when we are so far from who we once were?
当我们早已不再是原来的自己,谁还能认证地对待我们呢?
Don't think I am suffering,I am not suffering, I am struggle. Struggling to be part of things, to stay connected to who I once was.So living the moment, I tell myself.It's really all I can do,live the moment,and not beat myself up too much....
请不要认为我在经受痛苦,我并不痛苦,我一直都在努力挣扎着,挣扎着融入,挣扎着继续和过去的我保持联系,我告诉自己要活在当下,这真的是我现在唯一能做到的,活在当下,不要被击垮。
真的非常棒,尤其当Alice说到,当我已经不是原来的自己了,谁还能认真地对待我们呢?心酸又可怕,所有负面情绪倾巢而出,当我都不再是我了,作为正常人的自己已经感知不到情绪了,谁还会像往常一样认真地对待我们呢,虽然那时候我已不再是我,但谁愿意自己受伤呢,哪怕是那个行尸走肉的自己。
Ps:stillalic该片讲述一位事业有成、家庭幸福的成功女性爱丽丝·豪兰(朱丽安·摩尔饰演)的故事。五十岁那年,爱丽丝发现自己的记忆力越来越差,有一天,她还突然在自己最熟悉的地方迷了路。医生的诊断彻底改变了她的生命,也改变了她与家人和世界的关系。她患的是阿尔兹海默病(俗称“老年人痴呆症”),她的记忆跟不上遗忘的脚步,她逐渐失去了自己的思想,也失去了与外在世界的连结。但是,在家人的浓浓爱意陪伴下,她勇敢地为每一天而活,为当下而活
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